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speechless, over the edge i'm just breathless
i never thought that i’d catch this lovebug again. okay so last february. i was pretty broken. my own damn fault, on that i can;t lie. but i realized today. that for the first time since then i REALLY like someone. like i smile just cause he’s in the same room, and talking to him literally makes my day. he annoys the crap out of me but i can’t help but like him. and that’s so new to me. just seeing him in my newsfeed makes my stomach jump. psht text messages, don’t even talk to me. but i really see him as someone i could date and thats new. the last few guys i’ve liked were pretty unattainable, i got to admire from afar just watching hoping they’d pay attention to me but not really having to worry about my every move. and the fact that i do that now both scares me and bothers me. i don’t like acting that way cause of guy. that’s just stupid. but i can’t help it, its all i think about, and i get so defensive. its ridiculous and annoying. i feel like its all i talk about and its not that i do it on purpose it’s just word vomit. and well its in my head so much that i’m so worried about it. like a blink from competition and i turn into a wreck. it’s really freaking annoying. i just want him to like me. or not to. i just want to know. but i can’t tell him, i can’t be aggressive enough to ask cause i’m terrified that people will think i’m some sort of freak. it’s the most annoyingly ridiculous paranoia that i’d mostly gotten over but now i’m jsut scared that if i flirt too much people will catch on and it’ll all go to shit. okay this was barely comprehensible. wth.
i’m out of here.
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ohhaykristinn:
damnitspam:
monohmy:
jennysayswhaat:
brighteyesandbadgoodbyes:
this is my lifes work
this is the best thing i’ve ever seen.
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nickjonasthinks:
Nick J dnw you near his piano.
(submitted by: callmebelle)
i don’t care torrey, i’m reblogging it too.
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now, i really don't think i can handle this.
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i wish i stayed up late more often.
like, i love sleep, but i also love late night television.
hooray for snl though i love taylor swift. i love all the jonas exes now that i think of it. but whatever. i just wish i could stay up later but legit my parents dont let me hahah.
okay now i’m gonna watch some SNL. like wooot.
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why does love always feel like a battlefield?
seriously, i’m about to go get my armor. and it’s not even me. bahahaha seriously. okay here’s my ten things about ten people. woot.
1. you are my best friend. you know that. i adore you. you deserve the best, you’ve never done anything that suggests otherwise. i really just want you to be able to have that. you really will get something eventually. i really believe that. i am so excited that you figured out your senior project. i think things will stop miserably failing. but thats just my opinion. you have to love yourself for others to love you. and well most people i know do love you. but i think for that extra bit you’re looking for you’ve got to try your hardest to stop that cycle.
2. you are my other best friend. i love that we have nothing to fight about. twelve years going strong. i’m amazingly glad that you are here for me. like it’s fabulous having someone to talk to who doesn’t care who isn’t biased and just listens without bursting into tears or getting offended.
3. PLEASE.STEP.OUT.OF.YOUR.OWN.WORLD.FOR.TWO.SECONDS. i love you babe, really really i do. just please realize that it can’t be all about you all the time. you act like your world is coming to a halt every day. buck up, learn that “all press is good press” is only legitimate in hollywood. you don’t want to be on everyone’s tongues at all time. if your name is on everyone’s lips it’s probably not a good thing. you’ve got the wrong mindset. just look around, you’ve got it off much better than most. really you do. take your natural gifts and run with them. don’t focus on the negatives.
4. damn boy i love you. not like that. but you’re probably one of the coolest people in the world. i’m so glad that i get to have you as a friend. you could’ve hated me. you chose not to. and i’m so happy. thanks for being my friend.
5. i miss you. our friendship is getting pulled apart. not in a dramatic way. in a we just don’t see each other way. we need a date! i feel kind of replaced but i’m nto too worried about that in particular. it’s just the way things happen but i do want to stay good friends with you. i still consider you one of my best friends i love our heart to hearts. we do have that bond that only comes from mutual heart break haha. we should probably fall back into friendship. that sound like a plan? we need a dance party saturday. ;)
6. you are perfect. not really, no one is but i’m really glad we’re friends this year. we were never too close but we’re getting much closer. and i realyl like it. you have so much talent and i admire you so much for that. you’re beautiful and so sweet. this actually goes to two people at the same time.
7. i feel so bad, i look at you during the day and you always seem so lonely. i want you to be happy. what else is new. but you do have people who are here for you. open up to us, we don’t see you as a burden in the slightest. i really just want you to feel better. you’re not an outcast. people do want to spend time with you.
8. i don’t like the way you guys have changed. it just upsets me. i miss both of you.
9. i love having you girls in my life, there’s a whole group of girls who are just so sweet and so fun to goof around with. and i love each and everyone of you you’re gorgeous, hilarious, and great people.
10. get in my life. now. seriously bahahahaha.
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sometimes i feel like
i’m charlie brown and the only reason people invite me to parties is to draw on my face.
today is not one of those days i’m just watching charlie brown and i know it’s nonsense but it turns into that sometimes. bahahah. i actually just came to the realization that my life is paralleled completely in charlie brown.
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colleenanomalies:
searchforbreaths:
nottobeforward:
(via xtinkk)
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stay in my life forever and ever.
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